Today I began with a hope and filled with peace. I prayed that the day would be filled with laughter, joy and patience.
I have a lot of assignments I have to do in school as well as for my team and for my life after this trip which can be quite overwhelming. I have to write a draft of an essay, submit it, then revise it again. I have to start another essay which will be my last for the class. Then I have to take two tests for my other classes after I study for them. That is just my school assignments. I get three hours a day to focus on school, however, I also have other responsibilities that make the three hours seem closer to an hour and a half. I have been so busy that my anxiety makes me lose focus. I start my day with reflecting on Gods grace for me in the hard times and rejoice at his goodness.
I am so thankful to have a drive that pushes me through even when uncomfortable and I still ask to be more driven and hungry. I have to remind myself that the Lord is my rock and foundation. He is the stable thing in my life when everything else seems up in the air.
I start my day hoping for the best, but I fail. Throughout the day I frustrate myself for not meeting my own expectations of myself. I ended the day with questions, worry, and stress. My life feels like a game you play on your phone. You tap the screen as the camera distorts your face and try to put your face back together. The game is meant to be stress-inducing so that you mess up. In life I find myself attempting to reconstruct my face every morning, but fail to keep it the same throughout the day. I am learning how to surrender my expectations to the Lord in this area. There I blogged Charis!
Love you, girl 🤍
Good to see this summary of how you feel challenged. Could you list the options you have for confronting them? How about your mentor relationship – is that working? Are there other sources of coaches when youo get home?
Hi Faith, having goals set for the day is so good for you. I have found that as an artist teacher, and Mom it is hard to accomplish everything. It’s partly because of the way us creative people think. We think outside the box and always seek to see the big picture of things. You are on a very busy trip and learning how to organize your time. It can be overwhelming, but God is not ever going to beat you up for not getting your lists accomplished. He is ever patient and knows the struggle we all are in. One bit of advise (after asking God to help you organize your time) is to do one thing at a time. If it is not fully accomplished when your time is up, then that task gets put to the extra time slot, or to the next day. I don’t know if it helps you but it has helped me.